i’ve come undone
Running barefoot on pavement
Hot sun on my back
Blue shirt, blue eyes, blue sky
The tie in my hair comes loose
I feel a tousle of clean hair, fall limp around my shoulders
it bounces with each step.
little girls in pigtails and braids dance an image across my mind
for that safe thing to tie me up
tie me down
keep things from changing
but it is lost,
on a sticky grey slab of pavement, decorated with middle class homes and green front lawns.
hair loose around bare shoulders
in the middle of our street
feeling like a stranger in my own neighborhood.
I run for the house, the house that is loosing its warmth with each day passed
and that’s when I realize nothing is safe anymore
soon our home will belong to someone else
and we’ll be strangers,
living on the lake,
trying to stay united
trying to bloom like the flowers in the back garden,
with our centers pointed towards the heavens
I catch my reflection in the side panel of my truck
I recognize myself somewhere between girl and woman
fear escapes me and drifts to the place of my hair tie,
another lost part of me
time passes so fast and so slow, all at once.
I’ve left my hair down