one second I’ll be facing one way
I like one side the best
but I can never hold my feet there
I dance and twirl all out of control
I feel strong on the one side
when I turn to face the other way i feel myself weak and pulled
pulled by greater forces.
into a place where no one trusts me
a place where they want to turn me on my head and dump out all my secrets.
Where whatever I don’t like, they want to force upon me
I will not paint or dance or be around loved ones
I’ll be alone, in cold room, that a stranger tried to prepare for me.
I’ll be locked in that place until I can fake a smile.
and say what needs to be said
They want to break me
like a stubborn horse
quick face the other way
Once I get my legs strong I can walk this way too
it may just take more time, but I promise you this.
it won’t be on my own
but I will be the driving force
I chose to take God’s hand and he’s here helping me walk a steady line
no one has to connect our hands.
I am able and willing
I promise you this.
Although I am dizzy i won’t fall down again.